REFLECTION

I sure seem to be complaining a lot, so I first want to apologize from the bottom of my heart. I don't mean to get so down - I just feel that this is an outlet for me to reflect on my life. I guess my life isn't always where I would like it to be.

I know I have said it before, but this past year has been a difficult one for me. I am not sure why. I have tried so hard to change things in my life to make things better and more calming - but, it just seems to get worse as things do change. And, I have to keep wondering if it is just me. My kids are wonderful, my husband is great, and here I am - STUCK!!!

So silly, I know. I feel like I am back in high school and can't figure out who I am. But, when I start reflecting on my life I realize how much of it I would like to change (within myself!). Now, for those of you who don't know me very well, I am a bit of a perfectionist. So this clearly doesn't help my current situation:)

I guess I just need to have faith that if I keep going and keep making positive changes, then everything will just fall into place. I have been struggling with a certain "disease", if that's what you call it, for 13 years now - and I think that is the root of my stress right now. I keep telling myself that once that is under control, the rest of my life will balance out. But, I sure seem to be waiting for a long time. Am I doing enough to make things better? I don't know.

Well, again I apologize. I really don't mean for my posts to be so depressing. Sometimes I feel better getting things out and knowing I'm not alone in some of my crazy things:) And, when I remind myself of how blessed I am to have a wonderful family, that helps too...

Four Generations

I was able to see my grandfather the other day and I jumped at the chance to snap a picture of all of us. So here we are with Grandpa Great and my dad.

Home Improvement and Projects, oh my...

So, just when I thought my life was going to slow down, it got even busier! We have been busy updating our house to sell, and I must say it looks a lot better. We painted our bedroom and bathroom and put a new floor in the kitchen. But, just to clarify, I painted the bathroom and most of the bedroom and Dusty did the floor (with the help of our great friend Matt! - THANK YOU!!!). Here are a few pics...

Master Bedroom

Bathroom

Kitchen

Jack & Kate

I've also been working on a few projects (well, just two) to hang in our room. My good friend Michelle thought I should post them, even though I don't really like them:)

End of a Season

Well, it's finally over - I am officially done teaching at American Fork High School. And, it doesn't feel as good as I thought it would. I have really struggled the past few months knowing that it would be ending and I would have to turn my girls over to someone else. They are such amazing girls and I have cherished working with them the past 7 years.

This year has been extremely difficult, and extremely rewarding. The past month has been great and my girls have been wonderful. They are such great kids and I am so proud of them. They have been calling me their mom forever now, and I really feel like I am. It has been an amazing experience for me and I am so thankful that I had the chance to do this.

For winter guard, my girls have been undefeted for the past 3 years. It has been amazing.

So, I am posting what I have been doing for the past 7 years. If your bored, take a look:) The first one is field show (with the marching band), and the second is of winter guard. Our winter guard show was entitled "Ghosts of the Holocaust". It was a pretty emotional show, but amazing. Thanks for taking the time to read this. I know it's not too exciting, but I wanted to post this part of my life so I'll remember it...